Boys are like Vampires... They Suck the Life Out of You

Hi there.
Yes, i just finished a book about vampires.  Yes, i just had a bad day because of a boy.  Yes, it's just typical teenage girl life.

So today I walk into math and find out we have a new seating arrangement for the day because we will be working in small groups to complete our quiz. Guess who's in my little circle of desks? Him. Sitting right across from me.  Its just me, him, ashley, max, and dutch.  And it's so awkward i can't even begin to describe it. Of course, I act like nothings wrong meanwhile I'm staring at him the whole time. 
And he won't even look at me. 
I just want to catch his eye, to smile and say hi, but no. He won't even glance my way.  He just pretended like I wasn't even there. How degrading is that?  I think a lot.  So basically I just endure it through out class laughing at something one of us said and doing my work and freaking out and being "funny" because i don't want Winston to call on me.  And then when we start our group work, it gets harder. We're supposed to all be working together. Huh. Funny how that worked out. 
Here's the good news: He actually did look at me and talk to me.  A little bit.  But only if I said something to him, like, "did you get number 12?" or if he asked a question i'd give him the answer.  And then he'd say "thanks" without looking at me. But he never asked me a question.  Only glanced at me a few times.

One of those times was when tears welled up in my eyes because i couldn't take it anymore. A silent, sad tear trekked down my cheek and max and dutch just stared.  Dutch said "Are you okay?"  and Nick finally looked up. Straight at me.  Funny how he knew it was me that was crying.  And I wiped away the tear and sniffled, "I'm fine," and glanced at him. He looked away so fast I wouldn't have known he was looking if it wasn't for my good peripheral vision. Ugh.  So then Max was all like "Ellieeee, whats wrongg???" And i continued to tell them nothing.  I got over it. Acted happy.  And then, what do you know, I started crying again.  That was after he'd walked over to Winston to ask a question.  Tears sprung up again and Ashley looked like a deer in the headlights. "Ellie dont. Aw c'mon ellie don't."  She did NOT want to see me cry. especially in the middle of class. Once again max inquired what was wrong. Once again i said nothing.  Ashley whispered, "You gotta look tough or he'll think your a baby."  and i replied, "I know," and sucked it up. I drew the tears back inside and took a deep breath.  Talk about misery. 
He went out to the computers and I went out there too and its funny how he can walk right next to me and behind me and in front of me and not so much as glance at me or say a word.  But it was so so so obvious that he was aware of my presence.  He was just ignoring me.  Pretending like i wasn't there.

Nobody deserves to feel that way. Nobody deserves to be treated that way.  Especially by their him.

<3 Ella <3