Hello Beautful(:
You know, i think everyone needs someone to tell them they are beautiful every single day. And you know what else everyone needs to hear every single day? I love you. Its plain and simple: people need to hear that. I havent written in awhile...things have been a little crazy. I'm not sure how im feeling. My emotions are a jumbled up puzzle, too tangled up for me to put the pieces together. I just want things to go back to the way they were. That's all i've been focusing on. But i'm starting to realize that i have to start new, because I can't go back. What's done is done, and i need to put a new foot forward. I'm still standing on the edge of a cliff, but i'm not teetering anymore. I feel like i just need new things. New distractions, new friends. I'm sick of the same old thing. I've been going in a cycle: the same thoughts, the same tears, the same fights, the same feelings, and the same old schedule and habits. I need to break out of it and i'm trying to reach out to people i think i can be close with. People who don't say "cool" when i tell them a secret and people who actually care. I wear my heart on my sleeve. That's just how I am, and my counselor (yeah yeah i know, i'm a freak cuz i need to see a frickin shrink. but shes actually really cool), she said that people like that get trampled on. AAnd they do. Again and again. And again. But i can't change who I am. I don't want too. So I'm trying to trust people but it's hard after someone betrays you. So here's to new friends and renewed trust.
<3 Ella<3
Ellie- I LOVE YOU!!
ReplyDeleteYou mean the WORLD to me and I am so happy to be your best friend! You are so so so so SO beautiful inside and out and you have the amazing ability to cheer me up no matter what. I know I may be a little quiet sometimes and I may not say much when you tell me things, but you have to know that it's because I'm usually not able to put what I'm thinking into words. For example, when you told me you had collapsed in the hallway, I was so sad and scared for you and hopeful that "N" would forgive you that i had no idea what to say! Or when you told me about "J" last night. I was so so so so so happy for you but I had no idea what to say! I know it may seem like I'm not very interested when you tell me things, but trust me, I am. I'll work on putting words together when you tell me things(: I love you sissy. As Taylor Swift says : You're beautiful, every little piece love. And don't you know, you're really gonna be someone. Ask anyone. And when you find everything you've looked for, I hope your life leads you back to my door. But if you don't, stay beautiful!
I love you honey.
♥♥
We need some bonding time ASAP!
shank yaa(: love you too, call me for that bonding time!
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